So I have a confession to make…sometimes I have an
overwhelming sense of loneliness. Not the kind that comes from actually being
alone but the kind that in a crowd of people I still feel. In thinking back I
realize it started in the summer of 2013 when I was in the hospital. In the
time I was very sick and believed I might not survive I realized that if I was
to die I was going to go through it alone. Even with my family and medical
people around my bed it was only me facing my sickness. No one could do it for
me and no one could actually know how I was feeling. For a brief moment in time
I experienced such intense loneliness that I am at a loss of words to describe
it…It would not surprise me to find out that these feelings were similar to
what Jesus felt on the cross when He cried out asking His Father why He had
forsaken Him. And since that experience from time to time those feelings come back to me.
I write about this not to be a victim of those feelings but
to share with you some things I have discovered and a personal mission I have
decided to undertake. Very simply I don’t want any of my friends to feel like
nobody cares about them. So I am making it my goal that all the people I love, know it…then in the dark of night when they may think no one cares they might
remember that I do. For all we know on any given day we might be the only
person who has told someone they are loved. For me even knowing that one person
cares would be enough. And I am determined to take the opportunity when it
comes to maybe be that one.
So to all of my family and friends…that’s a lot of people!
You are loved by me…you cannot say nobody cares!
